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Tuesday, July 31, 2007

THANK YOU

Thanks to all who have listened to my woes..

Really grateful for ur ...

listening ears,
immense patience,
all sorts of advice (whether lousy or gd or crazy),
scoldings,
understanding,
reassurance,
not judging me (I really appreciate this!),

And ur support jus cos I'm ur friend!

Friends are forever... I really see the meaning in that..

Thank you for being my friend!

Add colours to your life!!
10:57 PM


Sunday, July 29, 2007

Game of hide and seek

The little girl doesn't like playing hide-n-seek when she was young..
She doesn't yet know of good hiding places,
and would be always be the first to be found by her play mates.

As she grew older, she learnt how to conceal herself perfectly well (or so she thought)
So her friends would no longer find her so easily.
Gradually, as years go by her friends stopped playing hide-n-seek,
but she continued to play.
And felt a secret joy in herself whenever she could not be found.
But the truth is, her friends have stopped playing this childish game in the real world of the adults.

She felt lonely and finally it comes a day when she didn't know how to face the world
Cos she has been hiding in her secret place for so long...

So long...
Maybe it is time to stop playing hide-n-seek and
start facing the reality for once...

Add colours to your life!!
11:35 PM


Thursday, July 26, 2007

So You are a Has-Been-Exchange-Student...

Some Reflections after my exchange in Denmark..

  1. The experience is BLAST! and I personally encourage everyone (who does not have the fortune to study abroad) to at least try a stint overseas.. even if it means paying an arm and leg to go for it!
  2. Take it as a break from NUS! I mean we all need that.. right?
  3. General (mis)conception is that SEP=Travel travel travel... It's true that I've travelled alot and even started off with the single aim of conquering Europe! However given another go at it.. I would rather spend more time in Denmark with my foreign friends and not travel so often.. U can travel anywhere any other time in your entire life.. but interaction and experience with friends from all over the world.. it's just now or never!!
    RL and I both feel that it is actually more fun if u take part in school activities and interact with the local community more.. it's really one thing that I regret most!
  4. Europe is an ideal place for SEP! Actually I think it is equally fun in any country, so it doesn't really matter where u go.. (according to my friend: anywhere other than Singapore is FUN!) More importantly is the company that you have!
  5. Loved the change of seasons... The feeling when Spring comes after Winter and the first time of experiencing snow... it is truly indescribable
  6. Do not stick so much with fellow Singaporeans.. Have a right balance and go all out to know new friends from all over the world! Bring in new perspectives and much fun to your life toO!
    I've made some life-long friends during my exchange and although I live the farthest away from them (cos they are all in Europe), I promised I will visit them at least once in my lifetime again..Missing all of them now...
    Promise I won't break this promise.. (Edita got my promise recorded down!)
  7. Don't worry so much about studying! (Unless u go to the states)... I think it is generally quite slack, especially in Europe.. Have fun partying and travelling!!
  8. SEP in denmark made me not shy away from Project work. I used to siam modules that require project work in NUS.
    At any one time, I was working on more than 2 projects! It also made me realise that I actually learn much more when I do project work rather than doing (or rather copying) tutorials and assignments and mugging for incessant tests and exams. Most of the time it doesn't matter if they don't make sense to you cos u just have to follow the standard steps to solve problems and tadah- u get good grades but u still don't quite understand but it is ok cos everybody is equally clueless.
    Probably project work in Denmark seems so much more manageable to me cos u don't have to juggle project deadlines on top of tests, assignments, tutorials and exams at the same time!
    Life is really so crazy in NUS...
  9. Looking back.. SEP seems just like a dream for me.. aWONDERFUL dream.. and many of my dreams were realized during SEP too!
    Too bad dreams only remain in your memory and you hardly ever get a chance relive your dream after you wake up...
    And sometimes.. you just don't want to wake up but you have to
    But you just can't dream forever...
    This dream will be etched in my memory forever!!

    Live your dreams too!!

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9:26 AM


Blue skies...

I want my blue skies...

Go away.. gloomy clouds..
Give me my cheery white clouds, azure blue sky and sunny sun back!!

Ok, on hindsight, the only gd thing abt the weather is that it is cooling n u don't sweat much..
Well u can't have the best of both worlds everytime..

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7:45 AM


Monday, July 23, 2007

Obelisks obelisks!!

Whoa..after reading 7 Deadly Wonders, I am inspired to do a blog post on my favourite obelisks! Well what are obelisks? Ignorant me didnt know it till I went to Europe and tadaaa obelisks became our (or rather my) favourite spot-the-thing activity while sight seeing in Europe...

It all began in Paris (which was my first trip) when I wanted to see an obelisk badly in Place de la Concorde... I thought it was an amazing sculpture or some sort (according to shoe-string) and in the end it turned out to be just a column to me then... Then whenever we see such column-like thing, we will excitedly exclaim "Obelisks obelisks!!" and the guys will point at it from a distance and make a joke out of it..

Until I went to Rome, I didn't know obelisks originated from Egypt and those we saw in Paris and more in Rome were all shipped from Egypt!This explains why there are hieroglyphics on the obelisks! They are the ultimate symbol of sun worship of the sun god, Ra and were located outside temples in Egypt. Sigh.. earlier on pk told me it was a symbol knowledge..Bluff me!! There are also a pair of obelisks called Cleopatra's Needles located separately in London and New York.. Don't remember seeing them in London though..

And Rome is the ultimate capital of obelisks! It is said that Rome has more obelisks than in all around Egypt! And I went obelisk-hunting in Rome.. and so delightfully surprised to spot one in Istanbul in Hippodrome Square too!

The various obelisks spotted in Rome and Istanbul!

Only the one in Istanbul had an inscription writing detailing the origins and name of the obelisk.. they should have this at ALL the obelisks so I can know!

But too bad I didn't manage to see the tallest obelisk in the world at Lateran (in Rome).. was so near but it was out of the way so I didn't have time to search for it..


How can I miss posing like an obelisk beside my favourite obelisks.. haha


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11:09 PM


Soo CUTE

Smiling.. like a contented child
Dimples etching deeply in his cheeks

So cute
So irresistibly cute...

Smile Always...

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8:43 AM


Wednesday, July 18, 2007

Heart attack? No.. Heartburn!

Yesterday before dawn, I was woken by a seizure in my chest area.. Never before had I encounter such a sensation.. It is like your internal organs contorting and contracting inside u.. extremely uncomfortable!! Made my heart beat damn fast and cause breathlessness and nauseous too!

I thought I had a heart attack.. seizure around the chest area...

After a few minutes, it subsided and I went back to sleep.. and when morning came, I experienced the same attack again!

Then I recalled last night I had late dinner but my stomach feel extremely empty just before I sleep.. and right now I am feeling the same feeling too! (downing a cup of chocolate nestle to curb my hunger pangs now..) Both my mum and doctor didnt think it was heart attack, cos my blood pressure and pulse rate are normal and one doesn't usually get a heart attack while sleeping!

It was the first time I heard the term heartburn and fyi, it is caused by regurgitation of gastric juices aka hydrochloric acid up the oesophagus and the reverse direction up the oesophagus caused the peristaltic movements in the muscles, thus explaining why I experienced the seizure in my chest area.

Although that was real relief for me (that it was not heart attack).. I was advised to cut one of my loves in love: FOOD!

No more coffee, alcohol, chocolates, spicy food, tomatoes (!!!), citrus fruits for me at least the next half year... Guess I'll be a good gal starting after tmr! In fact today I sneaked out to have a hawker feast with Why-so-ex group..

Guess it's hard to exercise self-control.. but I shall TRY!

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12:32 AM


Sunday, July 15, 2007

Constantly on my mind...

Disillusioned
Troubled
Lost
Remorseful
Confused
Guilty
Uncertain
Unconfident
Vexed
Cynical

Hopefully no more

Looking forward to a NEW start

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11:19 AM


Thursday, July 12, 2007

Back from Camp and tidying starts..

CAC Camp had been great! Forced me to adapt to Singapore's weather.. cos I was under the sun for hours for a few days straight and no air-con at night... It made me feel young again and at the same time emphasized how old I am.. no longer so garang and leading all the cheers... Shall cherish the last year of my school life!

Anyway.. Group 5 finally got Best OG! Our friendly strategy worked well.. guessed it built good ties with all the groups.. including the Camp Committee! haha.. gd job Shrekkers!

Now I am officially a slacker! Hope to try out a waitressing job.. at least before I graduate and start working proper! Banquet waitressing maybe! :) But meanwhile I've been going out the past few days and booked for the next few days as well! Packed Packed Packed! A bit tired of going out everyday.. But I've still not met up with many pple yet!

And it is time to start tidying up my room.. Went to Ikea today to shop for a new desk, new shelves and a new cupboard! Think I will start buying after I've cleared my room! Plan to throw away lots of things and revamp my room!!

BTW, I met my FYP Professor today.. A/P Loh K.C. Saw from the photo that he looks like a nice smiley guy.. and he really is! Very personable, flexible and pleasant :) and best of all... He told me and Kai Wai that most or all of the students who had worked under him so far got A.. Cool! But it doesn't really matter to me now.. cos I have no hopes of getting a First Class.. so just take it easy and enjoy my FYP! I'm dealing with bacteria culture and may have to stay for long hours in the lab.. Oh and I've got my own workspace and computer in the lab toO! Let's hope it will be enjoyable :)

Add colours to your life!!
12:03 AM


Thursday, July 5, 2007

Zer Screams of Insomnia!!

Maybe it is.. Maybe it isn't..

I really don't know.. But I just can't sleep, even though when I am supposed to be tired..
Today is the 2nd night of CAC Camp and its now 6.21am... Got officially 2 more hours of sleep!
Although I am physically tired and drained... I still can't fall asleep! And the rest are sleeping soundly and some had even just started snoring!! I can't imagine I can't fall asleep during a camp. OMG

Haven't been able to have a good night slp ever since I returned from Denmark. Initially I attributed it to jet lag and the 6 hr time difference between Denmark and Singapore.
But 1 week has passed and I'm still unable to sleep normally.

Isit due to the weather?
Perhaps.. these 2 nights at camp are the first nights that I'd slept without air-conditioning ever since I had returned from Denmark.. How I missed those days in my comfortable big sofa-bed in my cosy campus village room hiding under the blanket and fall into deep slumber the moment I lie on bed.. It's so comfy!!

But is it also because there are too many trashy thoughts whirling about in zer's tortured brain? Hopefully her mental health isn't deteriorating any furter. It is definitely not good.

ok..at this point in time, I am already feeling the heaviness in my eyelids.
Perhaps it is time to TRY to sleep.

Hope I won't end up staring at the whirling fan.. with my mind whirling with other thoughts.

Good Night and Sleep tight (to mysefl first) !

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5:06 AM


Monday, July 2, 2007

Back to Camp!!

I will be going for yet another orientation camp --> CAC camp!
Too bad I missed Engin Camp.. I was not back then.

It shall be my last orientation camp in my NUS life I guess..

I think I'm so used to spending my holidays on camps such that I feel there is something missing when I got back from Denmark! And it was great to see everyone again today at pre-camp, although mostly are new people whom I had never seen before.. but it was still great to see old friends and seniors like Jiayao and Beng Chang (yes I am definitely not the oldest in the camp!!)

Made me think of all the wonderful camps I had and the people I had met!

Made me feel damn old at the same time... had to intro myself to freshies as YEAR 4 tmr.. Can u imagine? So old liao...

Will be available after this week!! Jio me out!!! :)

Ruoling: I want to eat everything again! Kushinbo, Marina steamboat and hawker spread is FINE!! Just want to see everybody and eat alot! LOL

Oh and my dear sister got married last Saturday...So sad.. so soon after I got back.. Havent had time to spend with her after I got back and now she's (physically gone) Cried when I saw their video that night and a stupid waiter asked me why I so emotional.. rahh

Here are some photos from the BIG day:

New Addition to my familY!!

Dear Sisters...

Wish u happiness and bliss!! and I want to be an AUNT soon! :) Haha~


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11:43 PM