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Monday, August 20, 2007
Chemical Engineering? That's so not GLAM!
That was what a Biz professor remarked casually when he enquired what my major was.
Does it matter whether your job is glam or not?
Maybe it didn't matter to me sometime back, but I am sure it does matter to me, albeit just a little now.
Been thinking alot recently, especially on issues that I've not considered before. Talk with Alvin this afternoon prodded me to think more.
U can either say that I'm naive and still living in my own world; or that I am unambitious and easily contented with the little things around me. But this painful and late realization made me regret not planning adequately for my future earlier. Guess I am not alone in this.
With seniors graduating and entering the workforce and looking at the people around me who are going to graduate the same time at me.. it prompted me to think further, about my life after graduation, about my career, which will be what my life will depend largely on.
Friends busy securing internships with high profile companies during holidays; going for extra courses to get external certifications like CFA; busy planning their academic future, like pursuing a PhD and ensuring they graduate with good results; taking entrance tests to proceed on to do Masters in US...
What have I done to pave the way for my future? My future in 1 yr's time?
All along I was leaving in zer's world. A few years back, she thought she will be contented being a teacher for the rest of her life. Cos she just wants to bask in the joys and satisfaction from educating young kids. There was even a pt when she would be just contented to be a housewife for someone she loved. But now, I no longer dream of becoming a teacher. It would not fit in the kind of life that I would want. Suddenly there is this urge in me to want the same things as some of my other friends would want. Things that I denounced as worldly possessions and unimportant parts of life... Things like having a successful career, high income (high meaning not just 3k, a figure which I all along thought would be just
nice). Basically just a cushy and comfortable life (that would include travelling yearly!!) which I do think I would glady want it in the future.
I was rather surprised at myself for bearing those thoughts. Cos all along I have no big ambitions and wouldn't want to be caught in climing the corporate ladder. Afterall,
so what if u win the rat race? U are still a rat. Maybe I was just escaping into my own zer's world again, by blocking out all these thoughts that I used to think would affect adults only. And now suddenly I feel like I am thrust into this adult world, without much warning and preparation.
But maybe I should just live in zer's world again. Be contented with a job in PUB, which is after all doing what I like. Don't hanker over the worldly things. Cos they only make pple suffer in the process of doing so. (Look what its doing to my small undersized brain now; overworkin it) Are people who opt out of the rat race escaping from it? Or are they just savouring their life in their own right and standards?
I really do not know.
Maybe the better option is just focus on my short-term goals as of now.
Shall slowly straighten out my thoughts and consider what I really want and who I really am.
Add colours to your life!!
11:25 PM
